My LDL number exposed my peptide envy at the pharmacy

Junior year, $43 grocery budget, and I’m standing in the campus pharmacy trying to look normal while my brain runs a cost-benefit chart. My LDL came back 141, doc mentioned a statin, and my first thought was not 'okay' — it was 'but can I get the glowy injectable version?' Which is ridiculous. I live on dining hall eggs, canned tuna, and rice I microwave in a mug. I’ve got a notes doc comparing protein per dollar like it’s a fantasy football league. A generic pill is cheap, boring, and just keeps me alive; apparently that’s less emotionally satisfying than a ritual with a community, a label, and a little hope. That’s the uncomfortable bit I keep circling: I don’t want the unglamorous thing that works quietly. I want the thing that feels like a project. Anyone else catch themselves doing this — romanticizing the newer, shinier option while the boring pharmacy staple sits there with zero lore?